the up and up

Although I've been prompted to do so, I am am not strictly writing because of Ms. (soon to be Mrs.) Jenny's orders. And while I average a post or two a month, the month of November came and went without any recognition. I'm glad someone had noticed. And although I had mentioned when starting this blog that it would serve more as a catalogue of my thoughts rather than a blog to be read, I can't help but wanting to write something relevant for the few who do stop by. Call it my hunger for approval but I don't like writing without a purpose. Or direction.

Let me just say that I have never spent a month so conflicted in my entire life than this previous one. I know for a fact November 2009 has changed my life forever but it's too soon to speculate as to what form it's taking upon. Had I written something and posted it in this public forum for the six of you who read this, you would be just as conflicted as I while staring at your blinking cursor in the empty comment box mining for some meaningful commentary on my situation. So in all reality I did it for you. I saved you from awkwardness. You're welcome.

In a clam shell, it was a month filled with many hours spent: staring out the window, laughing alone, crying with others, too much exercise, too much coffee, too many movies, not enough sleep and one too many cigarettes. At first look this may be the list of someone who may need the assistance of a "don't jump" team but don't be alarmed. Behind this rueful exterior stands a man inspired. If there is one thing I've come to learn about myself is the fact that my inspiration thrives on misery. Not to say that I'm happy when I'm not, or the other way around, but I am in my happiest state when I am inspired. So am I happy now? Yes.

While on the topic of keeping current with my insides allow me to stay current with my outsides as well. I've attained my goal of 2009 of becoming eligible to joined SAG. By the time October rolled around I began thinking of postponing this goal but luckily that wasn't necessary. I managed to book a Verizon commercial which is currently airing now! I was Taft-Hartley-ed. When I first saw myself on national television I admit I squealed. Then I ran around my restaurant asking everyone if they had saw it to validate but no one had. Upon minutes to updating my status on facebook my buddy Christine managed to find the commercial and sent it over. And for those of you who have yet to see it... tada!

There I am in the first few seconds! I am shamelessly happy about this and I thank everyone who showed me love. This is just the start. I've set my goals for 2010 and you'll only be finding out about it once it's been overcome, much like this instance.

But seriously. I love you all. Seriously.